Friday, May 24, 2013

Imperfectly Perfect

Today's title is inspired by the blog series over at Grace for Gayle. The "Blog Every Day in May" prompt is Your 3 Worst Traits.

Okay, so I first wrote this on May 22, but today (May 23), I realized another one of my worst traits. So here are four of them instead of three.

4. Sometimes my self-confidence and high self-esteem lead to vanity. I love looking at myself in the mirror. I always feel like I look good, even in jeans & a hoodie. Most of the time, it honestly is just a healthy body image, but I do know that sometimes I spend more time looking at my reflection than I do paying attention to other people. The worst is when I'm skyping with Beau, and I look at my small image more than I look at his big image.

3. I leave stuff everywhere. You will find my shoes all over my apartment, wherever I happened to kick them off. I often have a few mugs from hot tea in my bedroom. My little card table turned kitchen table is covered with mail and receipts and paperwork that I need to sort, but haven't done yet.

I tried (and failed) to take a picture of everyday in 2011. This was an honest look at the shoes in my bedroom in Niort.

2. I am so bad at replying to emails sent to my anon address. Part of it is that I have enough communication to maintain with the people who know my real name. Part of it is that when I receive an email, it's usually 5+ paragraphs long, and a proper reply will take at least an hour to compost. 

And part of it is that several of the emails I've received have been wonderful, encouraging words that I needed to hear... But I couldn't address directly. This is also why I'm not reply to the five supportive comments I received on this post about my twin brother. It was hard enough writing about it. I can't engage in conversation about it. Just like I wasn't ready to engage in conversation about my bisexuality when I came out last July, even though I received some truly heartwarming emails from my readers. 

If you receive an email from me a month, or two months, or a year after the fact, don't take it personally. It's just that I have to juggle so much with this blog, and promoting my blog, and maintaining friendships with the people I've known for years who don't know about this blog.

1. I haven't even started looking for a local church to attend, and I moved here almost ten months ago. I rarely spend more than five minutes at a time praying. I can't remember the last time I read the Bible. Most of my Christianity is reading Christian blogs and offering my perspective. Sometimes this involves reading several quotations from scripture, but not always.

Do you have any bad traits you'd like to 'fess up to? Share in the comments!

1 comment:

  1. I'm pretty sure that anything you compost will take far longer than an hour. ;)


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