A year ago today, I composed my inaugural blog post, clad only
in my favorite lingerie, with a fuzzy blanket wrapped around me. As I write my
sixtieth post, I’m completely naked in bed, the same set of French lingerie
somewhere on the floor from when the boyfriend removed it last night. I’m back
in the same city where my blog was born, but instead of being a few weeks away
from the end of my internship, I’m starting the next chapter of my life. Moving
here is my last big move, until either the boyfriend & I get married
(fingers crossed!) or until I move back to France to recover from my heartbreak
(not bad for a contingency plan, right?).
It’s been a good year for Confessions of a Virgin.
I wrote a guest post for Therese at How to Lose Your Virginity… and then the boyfriend & I ended up
doing an interview for her documentary.
I wrote an article under my own name at Curvy Girl Guide after having connected with Meredith on twitter as
@belle_vierge.
I’ve made some blogger friends, like Lauren at Our Crazy Ever After and Ashley at Chickadette. I’ve made some twitter
friends, like my #bookends, @MrsJGatsby and @theycallmeivy. I’ve even made some
twitter/blog crossover friends, like @Classy_in_KC
I joined Twithouse, a twitter organization of ambitious
co-ed and post-grad women. Even after
the recent scandal, I’m still proud to be a member, and I still love the other
women in the group.
I’ve received comments, emails, and DMs from virgins who
relate to my posts. I’ve received comments, emails, and DMs from non-virgins
who have admitted my blog has changed their perspective on virgins and
virginity.
My pseudo-anonymous identity has given me the freedom to be
raw and honest. To admit I’m a sexual being, even if I’m not engaging in
coitus. To share my thoughts on sex and virginity. To write without fear of
judgment. To open up about my sexual assaults. To advocate for women’s rights.
Writing a (mostly) anonymous blog has resulted in some of
the most personal writing I’ve ever done. It’s so much realer than any of my previous
work.
And yet it has only been a half-truth, at best.