Friday, November 23, 2012

Thankful for Love and Orgasms

Well, it took about an hour of checking facebook, twitter, my email, and my bank accounts, but my heart rate has slowed back down to normal, and I no longer have waves of pleasure moving through my body.

(If you hadn’t already guessed, this blog post will be a little more… explicit, than usual).

Thanksgiving has always been a special holiday. A time for family, for food, for the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade (in which I danced my senior year of high school, thankyouverymuch), and for reflecting on what really matters.

After last year, however, Thanksgiving is no longer just one of many holidays during which I eat yummy food with loved ones, but it has elevated to a sort of anniversary for the boyfriend and me.

I spent both this and last Thanksgiving with the boyfriend and his family. Last year, in bed, after only the second of many sexi times to cum,* the boyfriend told me he loved me for the very first time.

I can’t believe it’s been a whole year since then. We’ve gone from seeing each other every three weeks if we were lucky, and every three months if we were not, to spending every weekend (and occasional weekdays) together. I’ve gone from googling “how to give a blow job” to making the boyfriend moan within seconds. My once-quiet, rather pleasant orgasms are now accompanied by gasps and moans as my entire body spasms in pleasure. I’ve stopped secretly daydreaming about our wedding—we now openly discuss the details.

So much has changed, yet the most important aspect of our relationship remains the same.

We are still completely, head over heels, in love with each other.

This week has been a difficult one for me. My car broke down on the way to work Monday. On Tuesday, I found out the repair would cost approximately $4,430, aka well more than my car is worth. I spent most of Wednesday sobbing uncontrollably.

But I’ve learned a few things this week.
  • I don’t have to do everything on my own.
  • I can depend on others and still be independent.
  • Accepting help is not a sign of weakness.
  • Neither is crying.
  • My boyfriend still loves me even after ignoring his calls, being passive-aggressive, and looking like a hot-teary-mess.

I also had to remind myself that, in the grand scheme of things, not having my own car is a minor problem. This Thanksgiving, I am thankful for the major things.
  • My twin brother no longer has a brain tumor.
  • My Crohn’s is still in remission, and I’m only taking pentasa.
  • My little brother is having an amazing experience in Australia, where he’s started dating his first real girlfriend—from Mexico.
  • I have a job. That I can mostly do from home.
  • I have a good boss and good co-workers.
  • I am surrounded by friends and family who love me, including my amazing twitter/blog friends.
  • And did I mention that I have a boyfriend who loves me, who respects me, who understands me, who spoils me, who finds me sexy, who turns me on, who makes me laugh, who wants to marry me?
Not having a car is just a minor roadblock along an otherwise pretty amazing journey. This Thanksgiving, more than anything, I’m just thankful to have the boyfriend by my side.

*I can't resist a good pun.


  1. have a great weekend and thanks for your sweet comments!!!!! i really appreciated them.
    well, you've been busy since i last stopped by! ;)
    hopefully the car sitch will be sorted soon.

    1. You know what they say... "Haters gonna hate!" Your blog is awesome, so just ignore the meanies.

      If by "busy," you mean my entire world has turned upside-down, why, yes, yes it has. I'm still driving a borrowed car via the boyfriend, and sadly, my financial situation doesn't mean I can get a reliable car. I'm testing out clunkers around $2000 (money I'll still have to borrow), with the hope the clunker will last me a year. With any luck, I can save enough moohlah to buy a new car in 11-12 months. I'm also looking for a second job.

      That was a really long response...

  2. I am so inspired by yours and Beau Vierge's relationship. I know sometimes life can get rough and bad things seem to all happen at once (my life right now). But I'm confident that things will always get better so just keep your head up and look to the future.

    Hayley Kiah @ Classy In KC

    1. Your comment means so much to me! I am incredibly flattered. It has been really difficult going through all this right now, and I feel constantly overwhelmed. But Beau Vierge continues to support me and to love me and to not think I'm a needy or shrilly person. I'm very blessed to have him. :)

  3. I just found your blog via Bonnie's giveaway and I'm so blown away by your honesty. It's really hard to find a blogger who isn't obsessed with subscribers and giveaways. But this type of blogger is so raw and real, even if it is anonymous!

    1. Thank you for your kind words, Genna! I conceded ages ago I would probably not become blogger-famous. I'd rather stick with being me than post lots of pretty pictures or participate in link-ups that having nothing to do with who I am.

      Thanks for commenting!

  4. Thanks for hosting a great giveaway

    1. You're welcome! I'm just grateful Bonnie is letting me participate. She did all the hard work! :)


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